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My youngest child turned 18 years old on yesterday. Lord knows I have looked forward to the day that I could say "We made it!" I can recall when I prayed to God on several occasions - to just let me make it. Allow me to live long enough to where my youngest turns 18 and I do not have to worry about my kids possibly being separated into different households. It was very important to me that I raised them in one household, together. I always wanted to make sure they had a connection and bond with each other, no matter where live takes them in the future. So when yesterday arrived, I was excited beyond measure - because "WE MADE IT!".
Then, after creating and uploading my son's birthday tribute to my social media page, it all hit me... "Did I get it RIGHT?" Did I get this single mother household and co-parenting thing right? Should I have made different choices to have different outcomes? As much as I tell my kids, at 18 - they are in control of their lives... I know the foundation I set for them has an impact on their future. So I was sad for a moment, while I reflected on whether I did the right thing. Although I made the BEST choice for me - should I have "taken one for the team" and made a different choice for them? After some time reflecting and speaking to a close friend who has been around since I was 17 years old, I began to have less doubt. I knew I had made the best choices for my sanity, and for my peace - so I had no issues with that. I also know that in order to properly love and take care of others, you must first properly love and take care of self. So, I know in the end, the road I have taken in life was the one meant to be taken. I also know that I have been the best Mom I could possibly be. I have never shorted my kids on anything. I have set a steady and stable foundation for them. I have always put their needs first. I have made some mistakes along the way and I have learned lessons on how to be a better person. My kids have given me a sense of belonging, a taste of true love, and invaluable life lessons. I will always cherish the bond we have and hope that God blesses us with many more years to love each other, on earth.
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